It's too late to realize...

With the time pass to the end of this semester, lots of school work I left this semester due to my lazy habit needing to be finish. I feel so nervous about everything, hopefully, there is a big break the next week, I will do 3presentation and a lot of paper work at that time.....so thanksgiving...sarcastic...it will turn to be a very enjoyable Thanksgiving day......get along with homework may be a good way to improve ability.... I also hesitate about the next semester's classes...I want to study illustration...but unfortunately...this class is not in the schedule of next spring 2012...I think I will chose painting III instead... I don't know how can I do ...what should I do....GRE... recommendation letter...I didn't do everything .....what a FU**ing stupid girl!!! like that song....It's too late to realize....It's too late to apologize....cry... :(